I'm trying to distract myself from writing my paper. I really need a different break than sitting here... but whatever. My roomie is out again and I have know idea where the fuck she went. I haven't seen her since 10:30 Thursday night when she went to go see New Moon... bleck. (She never tells me anything... or talks to me unless I talk to her first. I don't know what her deal is...... Whatever. I'm fine not having to interact with her.)

So! I'm going to tell you my dream from last night.

I think it all sort of stemmed from me watching documentaries on Julius Caesar and Caligula, because it was very Roman-style... and violent. THANK YOU, CALIGULA.

Anyways.

(Lol. Roomie drama. It's even in my dreams!)



It's a bright sunny day, and the setting is what people usually imagine when they think of like.. Ancient Greece or Rome... Sort of dusty with green trees and grass... I'm pretty sure it came from Alexander the movie.. somewhere in there. And there is a wooden playground... just... random right there.

I don't remember exactly how the dream started, but somehow I ended up here and in an argument with my roommate where she somehow managed to shackle my ankle to the ground near the playground without actually doing it... but I was just far enough from the playground that I couldn't sit on it, so I had to sit in the dirt.

I remember being very frustrated that I couldn't go anywhere and began yelling. Finally, somebody appeared (In my dream they were my friend, but I don't think they were anyone specific) and freed me, then told me my roommate would have been back to free me that afternoon, which made me mad again.

Just as I was making my way back to my home, I was confronted by some policemen... who didn't really look like policemen. They were more like... Roman soldiers at the beginning of the Roman Empire.. but with night sticks.. however, this time I was arrested and put into handcuffs. My roommate had called them on me because I hadn't stayed shackled up until she had come to get me.

So then I am carted off to this.. Circus Maximus... Coliseum sort of thing where I am put out on the ground (Think gladiator... except I am in 21st century clothes. haha... and no weapon.) I'm standing there, waiting to see what they were going to do... and then they release this monstrous.... creature.. like... 10 times my size... and it's about as demonic looking and gross... and just.. ugly scary as you can get. I'm scared now and I start running to the side of the coliseum to hop this fence thing.

Well... my clumsy ass trips and falls when I get to the fence and I fall into a pig pen. Just then I am thinking, "I'm gone... I'm going to die the most terrible awful death ever...." And suddenly... this dude springs out of nowhere and keeps the beast from reaching me. He's fighting with it, I crawl out of the pen and am all happy that I don't have to fight this monster... when the monster out of nowhere rips the man's skin off and eats it before tearing his limbs off.... So I'm freaking out again and it comes after me... again.

Somehow this monster disappears... I don't remember if I beat it or someone else did... none the less, I have to fight another. I don't know what it looks like at first this time because I immediately take off running again and this time get out of the coliseum (Mind you, there are people in the stands.) I run and run and run and run into that friend again. I stopped to talk to her, but then I heard the monster so I flipped shit again and grabbed my friend and we ran into this... field... of box car after box car... like... a ginormous train that had been taken apart and placed strategically on the field.

I'm frantically looking for one that isn't locked.. and find this.. rusty ugly one with a big black X on it. I don't care, my friend and I get in it. We're all, "whew." when suddenly this HUGE blue.. christmas-tree thing with one eye and scaly legs walks in... it's sort of happy and cute looking (We're looking through a hole.) It's chasing another person, who runs into a box car like we did. The monster then plays with the box car before tearing it in half and stepping on the man, sending up a cloud of dust and blood. Again, I'm freaking out. It starts coming down the line just tearing box cars open. When it gets to mine I'm like, "fjhsdakljfhs!!!" and run out of it.

So now it's chasing me... again. I take refuge in this rotten old house with ratty mattresses and thin blankets filled with holes.. just... littering the floor. There are like... 6 other people huddled in the corner. I join them and we watch in silent horror as the monster walks by. When we think the coast is clear, we come out from under the blankets and are trying to decide what to do... when this god awful, ugly harpy starts flying at the window trying to break in. Taking off, we all start running to town (I don't know any of these people IRL, but I do in my dream...) Town is... San Antonio... mixed with São Paulo...

When we get to town there is this HUGE parade marching down the main street. We run into it thinking maybe the harpy won't find us... but it starts killing and beheading all of the parade patrons... so we freak out again and keep running, the harpy ends up killing one of the little girls that was running with us... and everyone starts screaming. By now I am crying, but I know I have to keep running.

But... we come to a dead end... the only place to go is into this old house owned by this like... Gypsy man. He starts yelling at us to get out, but we don't heed him, and as we're running to the back of his home, the harpy kills him.

Once at the back, we notice there is no way out but down into the basement... so it is the path we take. When we get down there, it's pitch black and filled with water. All of my friends huddle in a corner and are dead silent.. I run to another corner... and after what seemed like forever, we hear the tick tick tick of the harpy's talons as she is stepping down the stairs... then... nothing. I'm still crying because I'm pretty sure I'm going to die again... when, suddenly, I hear gut wrenching screams come from the other side of the room.... and that's when I woke up.


I either have some pretty serious demons inside me... or something... but it was a very strange dream...

I often have apocalyptical dreams very similar.. like when San Francisco flooded, and you couldn't go out after dark (But no one ever said why... and I figured out why....) I had one in Brazil that was very satanic... which is weird because I don't know anything about Satanism... and I don't believe in it. It may come from my slight disdain towards Christianity, but... I don't know. D: It freaked me out. There was a pool of acid that everyone thought would be cool to jump into... all of my best friends. I tried to stop them... but they would jump in and burn and scream...

With dreams like this... I wake up multiple times throughout the night.. and I haven't been sleeping very well. This has been happening much more often than normal. Half of them I don't remember... but last night's stood out.

Night terrors?

But I'm also terribly fascinated by them... like I want to stay asleep... I want to be in them... but I don't!

And then when I don't, I can't wake up and it's hell.


Anyways. Sorry. xD I'm not the best story teller... I just needed to get it off of my chest.



...back to writing my paper....